I’m tired of this town. There’s literally nothing for me to do here when I’m not at work aside from hanging out with my friends and getting baked. That’s all I ever do anymore and it’s honestly getting boring. I’m at the point where I am relying on weed to be able to eat and sleep. My place is a mess because my roommate and me are too stoned to do anything half the time.
I miss Victoria so much but I feel like if I were to move back there I’d have trouble finding a job again despite the experience in different fields I’ve gained here. I want to move back so badly but I don’t want to ditch the great friends I’ve made here. I’m surprised I’ve made it almost a year out here this time since I only made it 29 days last time. All I want to do is skate with my best friend Ryan right now but he’s 1600km away from me.
Maybe instead of spending all my spare cash on weed and other stupid shit I buy while baked I should be saving up so I can get out of this shitty town.
I fucking hate my job but love the people I work with mostly. I hate that my roommates mom is my boss and that we’re so understaffed that I can’t even call in sick when I am. Yet we aren’t hiring more people so I have to work 10 hour days and don’t get paid OT most of the time since I work full time hours.
More and more I’m regretting moving out here. I’m not looking forward to the day when I finally do move back to Victoria because then I’ll have to say goodbye to all the awesome people I have met out here knowing I may not see some of them ever again. That makes me sad just thinking about it.
I really don’t know what to do anymore. My life is a mess. I really need to get my shit together…And I think the worst part of it all is that I came out here to make money but ended up around $2000 in debt because I got a stupid fucking credit card thanks to my last job fucking me over.